I no longer resent you father. In fact I love your fighting spirit, your honesty, you are so damn aware of yourself and your life, only you can fail yourself. And I know you are smarter than that.
My mother was horrible and my father had to run for his life. So I and my siblings was thrown in an impatient world very young. Looking back, I thanken them for their wrong actions, choices, decisions and all of the pain they give. Their bad choices, made me aware, wise, smart, stronger, more honest, creative, innovative, my imagination is limitless and I have children and a husband that loves me. I have the life dreams are made of, and the love of my God. Without him, my life would never be this way. Thank your father, his actions, choices and desicions gave you something to fight with and for. Don't think for one minute that your sister and brother's lives is better than yours. They are more unhappy than you think you are. They fear your strength, honesty, your ability to survive the odds and the beautiful heart of love you have. They are hiding behind the truth and the truth does dangerous things to the ones who hide them. Please, turn your life story in a book. I will buy the first hardcopy. I am not a fan of ebooks. I love your strength, honesty, and your fighting spirit. A fighting spirit lives longer. You have no idea how happy you made your Mom by just being there. Be able to see you and knowing you are near by. Tell her I love her surviving strength and the love she had for her family.
Such a gracious and loving soul you are :) Thank you for much for love, support, kindness and true affection. I am touched beyond words. Yes, I also believe in the same thing that my truth challenges the people around me be it my own family blood. They didn't want to face me because they are cowards. I have been through a lot but when I read books where I see people didn't even have food at the table to eat for months, all my miseries disappear. It's like what we give power to, our mind will act accordingly. My heart is pure because I know what it feels like when things aren't there or the way we wanted them to be. Thank you so much. I am thinking of writing a book on my life especially my domestic violence experience. I need to speak to people who have been through the same via my words.
Thank you so much dearest Amy :) You shine light on me wherever I go. I love you for that. I still go back to the shit but with time I know my ways to leave it where it belong to :) I am glad my story was worth reading my friend.
I am so glad you were able to manage to look for light in your most vulnerable times. More power to your mother for sticking by your side when nobody else did. You've come so far, and you continue to do so. Your story is inspiration. It's pathetic that your siblings left you alone when they could have help lift you up. With the childhood traumas you all went through, I would have imagined you guys would be intertwined and be there for each other. I'm so wrong!
They bring said, you're doing good and you continue to get better. More strenght to you, and salute to your courage.
When I was growing up like when I turned 24, I thought my siblings would help me settling abroad too but I am glad that this didn't work out in my life. They aren't happy people. I can never imagine myself earning dollars and sleeping with a heart full of worries and crap. I am way too beyond this shit. I know they will read this one day and it will be too late for them to understand that real purpose wasn't to earn money but to help people who didn't have what all we got.
I no longer resent you father. In fact I love your fighting spirit, your honesty, you are so damn aware of yourself and your life, only you can fail yourself. And I know you are smarter than that.
My mother was horrible and my father had to run for his life. So I and my siblings was thrown in an impatient world very young. Looking back, I thanken them for their wrong actions, choices, decisions and all of the pain they give. Their bad choices, made me aware, wise, smart, stronger, more honest, creative, innovative, my imagination is limitless and I have children and a husband that loves me. I have the life dreams are made of, and the love of my God. Without him, my life would never be this way. Thank your father, his actions, choices and desicions gave you something to fight with and for. Don't think for one minute that your sister and brother's lives is better than yours. They are more unhappy than you think you are. They fear your strength, honesty, your ability to survive the odds and the beautiful heart of love you have. They are hiding behind the truth and the truth does dangerous things to the ones who hide them. Please, turn your life story in a book. I will buy the first hardcopy. I am not a fan of ebooks. I love your strength, honesty, and your fighting spirit. A fighting spirit lives longer. You have no idea how happy you made your Mom by just being there. Be able to see you and knowing you are near by. Tell her I love her surviving strength and the love she had for her family.
Such a gracious and loving soul you are :) Thank you for much for love, support, kindness and true affection. I am touched beyond words. Yes, I also believe in the same thing that my truth challenges the people around me be it my own family blood. They didn't want to face me because they are cowards. I have been through a lot but when I read books where I see people didn't even have food at the table to eat for months, all my miseries disappear. It's like what we give power to, our mind will act accordingly. My heart is pure because I know what it feels like when things aren't there or the way we wanted them to be. Thank you so much. I am thinking of writing a book on my life especially my domestic violence experience. I need to speak to people who have been through the same via my words.
My parents were proud of me until they read my short story series. It might be for the best. You're a great writer.
Thank you so much Carlos :) My father has never loved anyone or may be has... I am not sure... He is someone who is lost in his own world lol
Glad to hear your father stopped drinking - hoping it helps with his swings of moods...
So proud of you for turning shit to shine... and you chica -shine oh so very bright.
I read your book and I am so proud of you... xx
Thank you so much dearest Amy :) You shine light on me wherever I go. I love you for that. I still go back to the shit but with time I know my ways to leave it where it belong to :) I am glad my story was worth reading my friend.
You are worthy of everything you seek… your words are more than worthy of reading x
I am dancing reading that Amy :)
I am so glad you were able to manage to look for light in your most vulnerable times. More power to your mother for sticking by your side when nobody else did. You've come so far, and you continue to do so. Your story is inspiration. It's pathetic that your siblings left you alone when they could have help lift you up. With the childhood traumas you all went through, I would have imagined you guys would be intertwined and be there for each other. I'm so wrong!
They bring said, you're doing good and you continue to get better. More strenght to you, and salute to your courage.
PS I'm glad your dad quit drinking.
When I was growing up like when I turned 24, I thought my siblings would help me settling abroad too but I am glad that this didn't work out in my life. They aren't happy people. I can never imagine myself earning dollars and sleeping with a heart full of worries and crap. I am way too beyond this shit. I know they will read this one day and it will be too late for them to understand that real purpose wasn't to earn money but to help people who didn't have what all we got.